ESPANYOL 101

Tsinoy speaks Spanish but not very well.

When he tries to speak Spanish, you really can’t tell

What language he’s speaking or trying to speak.

The first time they heard him, they thought it was Greek.

Ooh? Sounds like nursery rhyme. Nice piece of poetry. Haha. I was just sitting at the patio, reminiscing the past all afternoon. I just remembered my first days in my Spanish class. I was asked by our professor to introduce myself to my classmates in Spanish.

Buenos Dias Damas y Caballeros y Senor Piccio.

Soy Justin Ryan Morilla y Duque.

Tengo diece ciete anos.

Soy de la provincia de Sultan Kudarat.

Soy de la ciudad de Tacurong City.

The fifth sentence was wrong. May ciudad na nga, may city pa. Haha. What a turkey doing something thoughtless. I became a figure of fun at an instant. Everyone was like saying, ‘Guys, let us all laugh. He told a very funny joke.’ Well, go on laughing foes because I actually do not care. I really love doing ludicrous things, honestly. So, do your silly giggles.

In one of our class in Spanish, I was asked by my professor to translate English sentences into Spanish sentences. One of the sentences was ‘Tengo Calor.’ I answered my professor with all my confidence, ‘I am HOT, senora.’ My voice boomed through the room. Haha. I thought I was really right in saying that. But I was wrong. The correct translation should be ‘I feel hot.’ But one mistake never brought shame to me. I never even felt that I was in a state of dishonour. I was even glad with my reply; at least it was that close to the correct answer.

Anyway, I just wanted to share these things. I just want everyone to know that I really had fun learning the Spanish Language. I did it for the fun of it. Most of all, Thank you very much to my very enduring professors. Haha.

We Kissed Again

When was the light time you kissed someone?

Well, if you are going to ask me the same question, my answer would be a while ago. Ooppss. That is so much to prove that I am a kiss and tell kind of guy. I just do this, I mean, betraying confidence by unveiling very top secret information like kissing when I do it with this very famous star.

She was the first star that I saw for this day. The next was my superstar mother. LOL. I was lying on my bed when suddenly I felt her presence and my cheeks started to turn rosy. Maybe it was because of embarrassment and shame. I suddenly put my shirt on because I only wore boxers that time. Oh boy. But I know I should be proud. She has seen one thing that measures my self-worth. Laugh. What happened next? Let it be a mystery and baffle your understanding.

What are the good things about her kiss? It gives my skin a healthy glow and helps make it smooth and pliable. It elevates my mood and gives a good sense of high spirits. It is like I have reached the level of nirvana. Good Heavens. It treats my acute and chronic depressions. Dude, I know you do this too. You try to catch any possible source of warmth during cold and depressingly dark months. Do not deny it. You don’t want to be sexually unresponsive, do you? Aside from those things, it enhances my immune system, alleviates pain from swollen arthritic joints and lowers my blood cholesterol level.

I would also share the rules of thumb that I follow for healthy kiss with this star. I put sunglasses when she kisses me. I understand my tolerance to her beauty. Hee-haw. I also wear protective clothing for safety. You know what I mean. Then, I also condition myself if we will have an outdoor trip. I prepare myself by giving it progressive exposure in the days beforehand. And last, I open up our house to her every morning because she perks up my health and boosts my spirits.

So, what now? Let her touch your lips too. Let her press her lips on your body. Let her be the mediator of your life. It can be healing or destructive. It could be the kiss of life or the kiss of death. Be kissed by the star. Be kissed by the sun.

Credits to: Aileen Ludington of Loma Linda University in California

THE RING

I can hear the earsplitting honking of automobile horns, the rumbling of cargo trucks, and the screeching of the brakes of jeepneys. If I could still keep in mind, the sounds of the city wake me up early in the morning. I rush off to school. I eat a hurried breakfast and run around collecting my books at the very last minute. I am always frightened of being late to school. Well, that is life in the city.

One day, we had no class for the reason that our teacher was sick. Like a normal learner, I was in high spirits. My classmates and I had enjoyment. On our way home, a dazzling object on the street captured my sight. I swiftly get a hold of it and it was a ring. My classmate wanted to own the ring but I never gave it to him.

That hour of darkness, I went out of my room and brought the ring with me to the patio. The moon was bright and I could hear the sound of the bats. I stared at the ring and I observed that something is written at the back of it. I could not understand it because it is written in a different language. No matter what it means, I do not want to know it. I began thinking and I whispered to my self, “I’m in no doubt that this ring is nice to put on during the opening day of our classes.”

Time passed and that day came. It was the first day of our classes. I used the ring that time and anyone who sees the ring says, “How nice.” I will just smile and will not say anything.

All of those are what went before. Good memories that I look back and value a lot. I do not know what magic the ring has but it brought countless blessings to my life. I graduated in elementary with the top honors, my dad had a stable job, and I had an ideal family. I was never selfish of the luck that the ring gave me. I shared it to folks who are in need.

My grandfather? When he saw the ring, tears fall down from his eyes. He embraced me so tight and said, “I will contentedly depart this life for I know you will have a bright future. My son, you are fortunate for that ring.” I do not have the chance to ask him what he wanted to say and what the ring really means. However, it is not that important. Perhaps, that is the hidden mystery of the ring.

This luck will not last any longer. The countless blessings I have received is too much. I wanted to share these blessings to others. I went back to the place where I got the ring. I placed it there. Like what my grandfather did…

I have no regrets if others will have possession of this ring. It’s alright… It is their turn.

HIRED PREVARICATOR

I just saw this paper last night when I was glancing the certificates that I have received in College. I encountered this yellow paper which contains the speech that I rendered during the coronation of the lady who won the pageant in New Lucena, Iloilo. Christian Sorongon who is the SK chairman of the place invited me to do this thing called ‘DAYAW.’ As political science students, we sometimes act as a person who backs a politician or a team. Laugh.So, I accepted the offer. I did it for my friend.

Delivering speeches, addresses, remarks and etcetera is not a new thing for me. Nothing odd. Nothing weird. So, I thought this task would be an easy job. But after my friend explained to me the whole thing that will happen in that day, I realized it was not as easy as I expected. It was somehow difficult because it really needs physical and mental effort. The speech will be sounded out in Hiligaynon. Heck. I am not in well-being when I speak Hiligaynon words. I am not having peace of mind. Good Grief. I was studying in Iloilo for almost six months already that time but I still do not use the dialect that much. I still prefer to use Tagalog.

But I still have to do what I promised. I cannot back out from an earlier commitment. So, I just read it perpetually without interruption. LOL. I do not want to look like Merry Andrew in that day. I should not be a vulgar fool. This is a formal spoken communication justin and not a tongue twister. Okay? These are the f*ing crocks of shit that I said that day.

Maayong hapon sa tanan nga ari diri, sa mga pumuluyo, mga soltera kag dalaga. Sa aton nga napili nga bisita nga ari dire, dako gid ang akon pagpasalamat nga ako amu ang masuwerte nga napili nga magadayaw sa aton reyna sa kadamuon sang pagpilian.

Kanami gid sang panyempo sa karon, daw kapareho sang kaanyag sang dagway sang aton nga reyna. Ang iya mga mata nagasiling sang madamo nga tinaga. Daw mga bituon sa langit nga naga-igpat igpat sa tagsa pag-abot sang kagab-ihon, daw mga brilyantes nga gasaot-saot sa kalangitan. Daw di mapatihan pero ako gid naganahan. Ang iya ilong nga daw kinimpit kag hinulma sa perpekto nga korte, ini makaanaod sang paminsaron pakadto sa manami nga kabukiran kung sa diin damo pispis. Ang iya yuhom nga makatunaw sang matig-a nga tagipuso-on kag makapukaw sang naga katulog nga balatyagon. Ang iya tingog nga daw yelo sa kalamig daw isa ka lalantunon nga gapaabot sang isa ka daku nga paghigugma. Ang iya mga ngisi makalupad isip, hindi ko gid mapunggan ang akon panitsit. Ang malabaniya nga buhok, mahamot – manami, malaba – makaakit, parhas sang iya nga milok nga gaalon-alon daw balud ay abaw makalunod. Ang iya nga kilay nga daw ginkudlit sang pinakasikat nga pintor sa bilog kalibutan. Ang iya nga daw porselana nga pamaniton magaagda sang madamo nga nagapangaluyag. Ang iya makurba nga lawas nga daw obra maestra ni Michael Angelo sa pagkaperpekto sa pagkalilok.

Pero indi lang ang iya maamyon nga nawong ang pagalagson sang mga guwapuhon nga prinsipe sa iya pagdaku kundi pati ang iya maputi nga tagipusuon. Ang iya mapanaibuson nga kabubut-on magahatag sang kalinong kag katawhay sa tanan. Ang iya nga mga kamot nga sa tanan nga tinion handa sa pagdaho sang himpit nga bulig. Daku gid ang akon pagpasalamat sa iya mga mapinalanggaon nga ginikanan sa pagpadaku sa iya nga puno sang pagpalangga kag may kahadlok sa Ginoo, sa pag-ubay sa sakto nga alagyan padulong sa iya masanag nga buas damlag.

Sa liwat akon ginapaabot ang hantup sa kabubut-on nga pagpasalamat sa pag-agda sa akon sa sini nga tinion sa pagdayaw sa aton huwaran nga pamatan-on, kag simbolo sang mabaskug, mainuswagon kag modelo nga henerasyon. Maayong adlaw sa tanan.

I cannot imagine how I look like that time when I was articulating this words to the people. I am not even sure if I was able to enunciate the words in the approved manner. Sincerely, I do not even know and comprehend most of the words that I have said. What I only know is that I crowned with glory and sang with praises the little girl who won the pageant. Of course, her parents are so happy. Naniwala naman kayo! Haha. Anyway, it was a fun experience, fun at another’s expense, going to a barrio and tell lies to a little girl. I am Mister Hired Prevaricator. Evil Laugh.

GREEN-EYED Mindset

Jealousy has been around since the dawn of humanity and will be until the end of time. This damning thought stuck in my throat and cut me like a knife. That she, whom all my life I would love, should be another’s sweetheart. That’s why I have spent most of my life walking under that hovering cloud, jealousy, whose, acid raindrops blurred my vision and burned holes in my heart.

Typically, jealousy refers to the thoughts, feelings and behaviors that occur when a person believes a rival is threatening a valued relationship. This rival may or may not know that he or she is perceived as a threat.

All jealousy is caused by an overactive and misused imagination. Creating scenarios in your mind of what your partner is thinking or doing is the perfect way to torture your self. Yes however horrible it feels, it can be almost compulsive – it can feel impossible to keep jealous thoughts from your mind. A jealous man tortures himself without cause, morbid holding as he does, the success of another to constitute an evil for himself. Nevertheless, jealousy would be for less torturous if we understood that love is a passion entirely unrelated to our merits.

Jealousy is most evil when one repines at another’s spiritual good. It then said to be a sin against the Holy Ghost. It is likewise called to be a capital sin because of the other vices it begets. A mad devil and a dull spirit possess the jealous at the same time.

Most people dealing with jealousy think they are doomed to live with it forever. All of us might think that way. The reality is that we can stop Jealousy.

Make strategies that are related to emotion regulation, conflict management, cognitive change and ground rules for managing jealous competition. The most important thing to do is to first admit them and then attempt to overcome them. Replace jealousy with compersion or empathizing with a lover’s joy with another lover.

Everyone has a choice and there are always two ways of looking at it, but at the end of the day, admission of the problem and attempting vigorously to obtain solutions for the betterness of the relationship is the only way it can survive.

RANDOM THOUGHTS for the day

Will you fall in love with your cousin?

I got gorgeous and hot cousins but I'll never fall in love with them. :D In reality, being in love with your cousin is regarded to be an immoral desire for a reason that walking down the aisle with an individual who is considered to be a relative of yours is morally erroneous. Christ! I cannot conceive of myself hooking up with my cousin. Haha. I believe it is a very serious mistake. It is a transgression to our Divinity.

Will you love someone who has higher societal standing than your family?

You should by no means get scared out of your wits with the societal standing and standard of living of the parents of the one you love. Exchange blows for your love on condition that you have power over what it takes to be the spouse and have a heart full of love and good intentions for the woman. Im getting too serious. Goodness me. Haha.

Are you in favor of arranged marriage?

Intsikoys have this tradition. As a human being, I believe I am given the power to choose of who will be my partner in my existence. I have my own decision to pick the right one. Relatives have there restrictions of getting involved in decision makings. They can counsel or make recommendations nevertheless at the end of the day; the verdict is still in my hands. Right ma and pa? Laugh. Laugh. xD

Are you willing to marry a fickle minded lady?

It is so hard-hitting to deal with somebody who possesses the individualities of being indecisive and inconsistent. There may be a probability that she would not take the commitment sincerely. Marriage is a sacrament. It is not just like scuba diving that amuses and stimulates you. Right? But I never tried scuba diving actually. LOL. It is not just a mere diversion that you can withdraw anytime that you wanted.

What would you do if there is feud between two families?

It would depend upon the level of bad bloods stuck between the two parties. It would be convincing if it is actually a serious issue and parting away from each other is the best thing to carry out. It must be a very bitter quarrel between the two parties. However, if the matters being argued are just shallow, marrying each other and doing ways and means on how to make things work out just fine is the right thing to do. Do not be carried away by these shallow people. Oopps. Sorry. Peace out.

-I just got nothing to do. This thoughts just entered my mind a while ago without any definite plan, order or purpose. I really do not know why. Oh boy. I think I really should get a girlfriend right now. LOL. Im just joking. I got a covenant right now and I have to do it for a year. :D

Billet Doux

I really had a restless night, so worried and uneasy in my bed and thinking about what happened to us that night. Hindi ko naisip na aabot tayo sa ganun, I experienced the worst headache ever, all I could hear was my heart beating much faster than it ever has. I cursed my stars that night, as my expectation for the night was so much greater, but it ended in a far different way that made my heart throttle with tears of losing something na dati lagi kong pinaglalaban.

Pareho tayong nakagawa ng pagkakamali not trying to understand each other, some words did hurt in some way and I guess we got carried away after all those arguments of whether truly you have some intimate relationship with *****. I guess this issue has always been the stumbling block of our relationship getting worked out. Alam mong nahihirapan akong paniwalaan kung anuman ang totoo. Perhaps you need to give me a chance to find out for myself whether what you’re trying to make me understand is the real truth or not. Trust is very important and so I hope you have no objection about me finding out the fact about whether you have ‘thing’ with him or them.

Alam kong pareho tayong may mga nasabing mga bagay sa isa’t isa na di natin inaasahan, trying to find out the truth about something, it’s really hard and needs much time, but I guess I got carried away by saying those words to you. Being the first girl to have said and done those things to me also hurts and means a lot. Whether you accept my apology or not, I’m truly sorry sa mga di magandang bagay na nasabi ko sa iyo.

So many times I thought life is so unfair. Alam kong may mga dahilan why we can’t be together. Reasons that God only knows, pero di iyon naging dahilan para kalimutan kita. You really know how much I love you and care for you but there is nothing I can do more. Even though we’re apart, that was not the reason of the end of our commitment. You are the best thing that ever happened in my whole, entire, damn life.

Hindi ako sigurado sa chance for us to experience the passion in each other again. The most important thing is that this is not our first love experience and one thing we must understand is that, in every relationship, whether old or new, sigurado ako na hindi talaga mawawala ang mga problema but it’s up to us to solve them. These are some of the things that might break our warm relationship and everything we are planning ahead of us. Kailangan natin intindihin ang isa’t isa and try to have the trust that will make this relationship work. I know you want this to work as much as I do and I still have my hopes up, never giving up on you. Let me tell you this thing that I believe in a real relationship: “It doesn’t take beauty to make a relationship but the heart and the mind.” I know what I’ve seen in you and have a special reason of choosing you. All guys are never the same. The heart shows all the difference.

For now, Alam ko sorry is just a word, but for what it’s worth I am very sorry for hurting you that night. Nasaktan mo rin ako and I’m really confused about everything. I much want things to be stable and that we both get all the time we need to make our decision. I love you so much and never will I think that I can forget you. Hope to hear from you. I remain yours.

-I wrote this letter months ago. This letter has been saved in my laptop for how many weeks already. I was about to give it to her last 03.22.09. But I did not. Now, Regrets is all I have.